I have nothing do to with my Life

Sometimes I wish upon a shooting star. But the only problem is; have you seen how fast those things pass?! It takes me that long just to remember what I was gonna wish for!! It's pointless. By the time I actually think up my wish the shooting star is gone. :( I hate my life. haha just kidding!! :P I actually love my life right now. Buuuuuuut that's another story. So my friend Kate(the fashionista) did like three photo shoot things and posted them on her blog! They're amazing. Like seriously. So click here. It's kiiinda epic. :P So I actually have to go accomplish things in my life every once in awhile. Like my World Geography Homework. But seriously? When am I every going to use geography in my life. GA!! Kay, G'night bloggers!

Friends with Benefits

I am begining to think that being 'Friends with Benefits' is better than actually having a boyfriend. Which is terrible, but right now the 'relationship' I'm in is friends with benefits and it's besically like we're dating, with no commitment. Which I find amazing. But it would still be nice to have a boyfriend. But hey, life's life. It's a bitch. Kay, I know I havent posted in awhile, but that is all I needed to say.

Eyes

So a LONG time ago I said that I had an obsession with eyes and that I would explain later. So here it is. To me, the eyes can say everything, or nothing at all. They hold so much power. They give you the power to see the world. See the colors and hues of everything around you. And how they look is so much more interesting. I really wish I had either deep deep blue or more of a turquoise color, or a really light brown, or even goldish color eyes. But no, I got stuck with Brown eyes. But in the future I'm getting colored contacts. . . Just because I feel like being unique. But that is color. Another reason I think eyes or amazing is when you see them in the right light, (usually pretty bright lights, like in a bathroom with whiter lights than usual) you can see dimension in the eyes. . . almost like the colored part of the eye is con caving in slightly. Also you can see detailed color that you don't really see under normal light. For my eyes I see a thin black ring around my irises. One of my friends has green eyes with flecks of blue. . . Needless to say, I'm pretty jealous. I know this seems really strange, and kinda stalker-ish, but I love eyes. . . it's a little rediculous. . .

Surviving Highschool: Homework and Classes

Just do the Homework when it's assigned, don't wait the extra day that you have, if you have block days(Which I do). Waiting the extra day means that you either get dumped the next day and have to do TWO DAYS of homework, instead of the one that you would have had if you didn't slack, or you are constantly behind by one day until you decide that maybe it's a good idea to do your homework the first day. And for all you slackers and ditchers who think you're cool for doing it, I understand some of you have problems at home that are helping with the slacking/ditching issue, but those of you who don't have a reason: It's not cool. It's actually really annoying when the techer has to spend a long time explaining something to you that we've already covered. And guess what's not gonna be cool when you're in Senior Year, and you don't have enough credits to graduate and have to take Senior year again with all the kids that you made fun of last year for being a nerd, or if you don't have good enough grades to get into a decent college. Hm? What will you do then? SOOOO technically it's NOT that cool. Sorry. But Don't slack in Highschool, then you might be so smart that maybe you can get a good job and be like a supervisor or something, then you can slack EVERYDAY. Sound good? Good. Okay. I'm done

Players and Sluts

Players and Sluts. Anything else?
Players:
Type 1 of players: Cheaters: Honestly, what is the point of cheating on your boyfriend or your girlfriend? Someones gonna find out sometime. Suck it up. Choose one and move on. You have more time. And yuh know what? If someone finds out, your in A LOT of trouble. I don't think anyone is gonna want to date you again. (Unless they are sluts. We'll get to that later.) And Overall, normal people can tell if you're a player. You're honestly not that hard to spot. Sorry to burst your bubble.
Type 2 of players: Not liking anyone: This is a sad type of players. Honestly, WAIT. It's not hard, I've been waiting for over two years. I'm still alive, aren't I? So if you date one chick, don't go off the next day and start dating another chick. And most of all, don't ask them for nude pics. That's just messed up to begin with. And dating someone you don't know is just gonna make you bored about to be with the person you're with, AND blind to some very sweet girl that is PERFECT for you because you're (hopefully) not looking at other single girls or guys.

Sluts:
Type 1 of sluts: Stereotypical
I don't really know how to put this. I think most people know what sluts are. You know, they look like they work Colfax(It's a street near where I live that's known for the prositutes that work on it.) They wear short pencil skirts that if they ride up (when they walk, or for some reason when a guy walks by) they show their butt cheeks. . . NOT pretty, unless you're of the opposite gender. yeaaaaaa, okay.
Type 2 of sluts: Flirtatious
They flirt with everyone. Enough Said. And yes, I DO know the difference between talking and flirting.....and I will admit everyone PROBABLY thinks I'm either A) lesbian or B) a flirt. . . and I probably am, I'll admit. So.....you get the point.

I'm not saying that there is anything wrong with either of these, it's just a

Me and Lizzie

I'm sitting in World Geography. . . being bored of the lecture. . . she's basically saying the same things over and over again. . . laaaaame, so Me and Lizzie(her blog is The Costume Trunk (click here) took a picture with my webcam....cuz we're smart like that. Yeaaaa, not really. xD just kidding, Lizzie, you're smart! So here it is...                                                















 I'm on the Left and Lizzie is on the right...... and that's Jack Linder in the back, actually paying attention(for once...haha just kidding...sort of)

 

Autotune

I've been listening to a lot of music, and something is really getting to me. Autotune. First of all, it's so OBVIOUS that they're using autotune, and it pisses me off. Let me enlighten you here. These 'singers' are good, don't get me wrong, but they are off. They're pitch is not right on. So you hear them on the radio and they sound very cool, with all the things added in that a regular voice could never pull off, like repeat things super fast or slide up higher than a piano can go. Yea, but this plan to sound so good and get fans, fails as soon as they have to do an actual show and they can't use autotune because we haven't invented a microphone that automaticly does autotune(although I'm sure they will someday, for now, it's lipsyncing, which also drives me nuts). So I loose so much respect for singers that use so much autotune that they're off the ENTIRE song. I drives me nuts. And my friends wonder why most of my favorite singers are not new singers. Well, lets see, they HAD to be good singers because autotune wasn't even INVENTED yet. But I'm not saying that all singers use autotune, no, not at all, but most of them that started off in a studio do. But all of the ones that came off of talent shows like American Idol, The X Factor, America's Got Talent, or The Voice, never end up using autotune. That's because they didn't start out in a studio, they started out preforming, AND they had to be good or they wouldn't have won. Some of these people are Carrie Underwood(American Idol), Kelly Clarkson(American Idol), and yes, One Direction(Britian's Got Talent). Another thing about Autotune, is that there are all these AMAZING singers out there who would do amazing as professional singers but their parents don't have enough money to send them into a studio, and they don't have time for these tv shows. Then there are the so-so singers who's parents (or whoever) have the money to send them into a studio, get autotuned. However, sometimes the autotune makes them sound worse. Example:(this might get some Hate, but I'm gonna back it up) Rebecka Black. This is a video of her really singing. No Autotune, it was an interveiw on ABC news:

There it is. See? She's good. Autotune ruined her life. She began getting death threats, she had to be pulled out of school because everyone was teasing her, so she's homeschooled and she has a body gaurd. Also, she has the FBI investigating the death threats. And she's my age, ninth grade. Is that sad. Autotune basically ruined her normal life. Autotune is just . . . bad.

Procrastinating. . .

I'm being a procrastinator. I have a Theater Assignment due Wednesday in which I have to design the set and the costumes for a one act play, and do it creativly. Ya, it's. . . . difficult. I chose a comedic/melodromatic version of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Suuper funny, but it's in the Victorian era, and I'm too lazy to find out what some victorian furnishings look like for the set. Urgh. FML. I also have a Language Arts Project that I am also procrastinating on. But I have a reason. It's about the Pol Pot genocide. Genocides make me want to go die. In a hole. Alone. So since I don't feel like becoming depressed, I am learning the art of procrastinating. Actually, no, I am already the Queen of Procrastination. BOW DOWN TO ME! Haha just kidding.

SHOWER THOUGHTS:
-Wouldn't it be nice to have a boyfriend?
-We get a lot of things from movies and books. I really want to be an alpha female in a Gaurdian Pack. (Read the Nightshade Books by Andrea Cremer, they are kind of sexual, but EXTREMELY funny and awsome, I'm in the middle of reading the trilogy for the third time)
-I want to be someone special. Someone known, if even just locally, that would be cool.
-These thoughts are all about me, I'm so self centered right now.
-I'm loosing it.
-Did I take my meds today?
-I don't think so. . .
-Thats probably why


Anyway, the only thing i have accomplished today is selling tickets for the Westernaire Annual Horsecapades Show in front of a King Soopers grocery store. I was selling with one other person and in total we made $370 yea, I'm happy. haha anyway, ending on that note,

PEACE

I have no life. . .

I sitting here waiting for my pictures for my Westernaires ticket-selling career. (If you want to buy tickets from me, they're $8 each, email me for questions: baron2daisy@gmail.com) But I was thinking today about how people judge others with no real reason. For example, I was talking to this guy that is not that good-looking. And after he left I began to think that he was really nice and actually not that bad looking, so i turned to my (kind-of) friend and said, he's actually pretty attractive. She gaped at me for like five minutes and slowly asked, "You think he's attractive???" All in all I think we should accept what people think and not be all like, "Omigod, she's such a slut, the only people she hangs out with are guys." Uhm. Excuse me, but no offense(actually yes, take offense) girls are A LOT harder to hang out with and just be yourself. They are CONSTANTLY judging everyone around them. I'll admit it, I judge people too, but I don't gossip about it unless it's about some guy who I ACTUALLY think is gay, and that's not bad, coming from me, cuz I really enjoy gay people, they are PROBABLY the best people on the planet. Just saying.

What is it with all these guys using the term gay as a negative word. Like the song Call Me Maybe comes on and like two guys FLIP out and are like, "THAT SONG IS SO GAY, YOU FAGGOTS." yea. you're definitely soooooo cool. Whatever, dick. Also, swag? Do they realize that they are the ones saying that something is gay, and then laughing and saying, "We got swag, bro!." ................Dude, do your research. Swag means Secretly We Are Gay. Look it up. And Pull up your pants. That was a sign for other prisoners saying that they were gay. Again. You are a friggin hypocrite. Stop it.

We will come back to this topic some other time, when I have more time.

HAIR TIP #1

I'm no fashion expert but I do have some cool hairstyles(In my opinion) that I use all the time! So numero uno!

1)Wash your hair and then comb it out.
2) You may need someone who can french braid(you will need one on the very back of your head)
3)Get your french braiding friend to braid your WET hair into three french braids(it doesn't have to be neat) on on the right side of your head, one on the left side of your head, and one of the back of your head.
4) tie them off and go to bed(you may want to lay a small towlon your pillow so you don't get your pillow wet.
5)In the morning undo the braids and SEEEEE THE PRETTY WAVESSSSS
6) DO NOT COMB IT OUT
7) DO NOT COMB IT OUT
8) DO NOT COMB IT OUT
9) use a curl enhancer spary or cream and rub all throughout hair especially at the tips of the hair(pushing up on the tips)
10) you can keep your hair down, or pull it up! It don' matter, just show off the waves!

This style looks much more natural than what a crimper can do, with the very uniform waves. And I'm not quite sure how it turns out with shorter hair(as my hair is pretty long) But it works with thin or thick hair

Friends

I don't think people really appreciate their friends as much as they should. Like it seems (girls especially, me too sometimes) that all we focus on its loooooove but let's face it, it's not OUR fault we're so invloved in love! Every single song out there has something to do with a crush, a realationship, or a break-up. Every movie has at LEAST one romance. most teenage books do to! So our entire society is infused with the four letter word love. Words that are really have no sexual meaning at all are made to have one. i.e. Bitch. means famle dog. In the dictionary, there is no part that says, evil woman, mean person, sex slave, or ANYTHING. But we do it anyway. Pussy also does not nessesarily mean vagina, I haven't looked it up yet, but I'm pretty sure its what little kids call cats. (Pussy Cat) Jus' sayin'. So it's not our fault we are obsessed with the fact of love. And I have no problem with that, but my problem is that our obsession seems to be clouding our vision to see that fact that we have some really great friends, friends that will stand with you no matter what. Taken or a Loner. (I'm a Loner too y'all, don't be flippin' out, but we're not really alone, are we? Just single) And sometimes our obession with love can also cloud the fact that we have some really sh*tty friends, that are complete jerks to everyone else and that we need to find new friends right now. So let's all take a moment to think about our friends. How great they are or how bad they are.
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You done? Good. Next topic. Math. Anyone feel like tutoring me in the fragil art of the Algebra Two Honors Matrix? I'm like Super Confused right now. Eh. Sometimes being two years ahead in math kiiiinda sucks butt.

PEACE!

Surviving High School: Lockers

My advice, from personal experience, DON'T READ YOUR LOCKER COMBINATION UPSIDE DOWN!!!!! I don't care how good of an upside down-reader you are. It's never a good idea. For example. I'm not a bad upside down reader myself, but I messed up my combination sooooo many times. I had a freaking heart attack for like the entire first day of school! And mixed with all the stress, it didn't end well. So I read my combo upside down and the combo was 10-**-** I entered it and entered it but my locker DID NOT open. And I saw my friend Sarah and I was flipping out and she's like 'dude, it's not 10-**-** it's 01-**-**' yea. A great experience.

Some of you may be asking why my combo was upside down. Well the combo is on my schedule and I had my schedule in my binders clear front pocket thingie and my binder was in my backpack, I had a ton of crap in my backpack so I didn't want to take out my binder, as it would have been hard to replace it. . . So I read it upside down.

Peace out broskis!!!
Love you all!!

I SHALL SING!!

I recently posted a couple videos of me singing on youtube this past week. If you are interested then: for me singing Not Over You by Gavin Degraw click here And for A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Hudgens click here. But if you don't feel like doing it the easy way, or you have some extra time on your hands, just go to youtube and search thesneekylittlefox but remember, sneaky in my username is for some odd reason spelled sneeky. People constantly sqrew it up. I only have two videos up currently, but THERE IS MORE RANDOM THINGS TO COME!!! MUWAHAHAHAHAHA!! haha just kidding. But seriously, there is some more things to come. :D Peace out, broskis!!

High School!!! ACK!!!

Sorry, I haven't posted in like FOR-FREAKING-EVER!!!! But Highschool is . . . .how do I put this. . . different than middle school. Uhmmmm. . . 1) lots of PDA. . . sorry, but there are people making out rigth next to teachers and I'm like, "Uhm, hello? Is there not a PDA rule here? . . . Oh wait. . . there isn't." D: So I'm sure I will appreciate that rule once I ACTUALLY FIND A BOYFRIEND, which, considering my case of being the clingy-best friend, is not an easy task, mind you. Four of my friends started the school year with the label of 'single' but managed to change that within like what? Three weeks of school? Either they are undercover sluts or they are just attractive to men. . . . WHY AM I FRIENDS WITH SUCH ATTRACTIVE PEOPLE???? WHY???? Aaaaand for all you people who have never had homecoming before. I am warning you now, the movie's lie!!! They LIEEEE!!! They are LIARSSSS!!! If you don't go there with a date, or dont have extremely good male social skills and plan on finding a date there(Not likely) then don't go alone. . . like seriously. My reasoning? 1) No matter what the movie's say, it's not the romantic place with just a few people and that plays a lot of slow songs. 2) They play A LOT of fast songs which everyone that isn't a freshmen(or isn't a slut freshmen), is grinding on some guy or girl(or both 0.o) Like hardcore grinding. 3) As it turns out, it doesn't matter WHAT song they play, people will still grind 4) Only the real couples dance romantically and then they start making out in front of they're SINGLE friend who has been standing awkwardly to the side hopeing either A) Magically someone will ask her to dance(Don't hope for it, it won't happen, I garuntee you, every one is too busy grinding) or B) they will change the music(It'll happen at some point. . . I promise. . .Or homecoming will end, even better) 5) It's very dark. So even if you do look STUNNING(which you do) no one can see it, because the lights are turned down low so everyone looks like. . . the same. 6) It's very hot and sweaty. . . and if you want to go to the bathroom and you have to cross through the heart of the dance floor to do it. Don't do it. . . hold it. . . everything will go better if you don't start a mosh-pit. I promise. Because in the middle some people are grinding so hard I think they mayyy be having sex. . . .*awkward* and they are all so close together that you have to push people and your walking on like a carpet of feet. . . and people get really mad. NOT good when your a freshmen. So ladies. . and boys, don't expect much from homecoming unless your a slut. Also, don't wear high heels, you'll end up taking them off within five minetes(which are spent waiting in line, by the way) But make sure you ask someone who has gone to your schools homecoming, and ask about grinding, not all schools do it. . .
Sooooo as you can tell, It was kinda weird for me at homecoming, no boyfriend, all my friends have boyfriends, all my single friends I kept loosing in the mass of grinding or found someone to be they're date(only one, this year). But if you do have a girlfriend/boyfriend then request some slow songs(they might come on in like half an hour or so) cuz they are SUPER romantic. . . *sigh* anyway, I'm Out.

School. . .

Kill me now. . . School starts in 13 days. . . Why does Summer always pass so quickly? Life would be perfect if there was a pause button for the happy times, fast forward buttons for the sad times and a chair button so that you could high five someone in the face with a chair whenever you felt like it... That would be awsome. But chairs would be falling from the sky more frequently than rain drops . . it's an interesting world we live in. Yes, yes, it is. I'm pretty content with my life right now. I'm leasing a horse named Scout(his registered name is Sage Scooter, is it just me or is that frikin hilarious?) but I'm taking barrel lessons from a lady who does barrel racing like every week. Pretty cool, right? Yea, I'm happy. Baron is able to trot up to five minetes now. Mom just got surgury two days ago, so I'm being a good girl and staying home with her to tend to her every need xD haha just kidding, I am staying home with her to make sure she's o.k. and I kinda wanna spend my last two weeks of freedom in peace before I get chained to a desk for school... yay. -_- and I still haven't finished my summer homework.... not good, but I had to read a book about the Halocaust called Night by Elie Weisel and I almost threw up and started balling multiple times... and now they want me to do journal entries about it?? I think no. But I have to, so it's going slowly, especially since I have ADD or ADHD or whatever. Anyway, PEACE OUT!!!

Olympics

I have decided(or realized?) I'm not gonna be in a relationship this summer, this summer is just gonna be about living. YOLO!! lol *cheesy as hell* anyway he is kinda being a douche... you know, not talking to me since we last hung out. I think I annoy him. . . I really don't care right now anymore. If he's playing hard to get (highly doubt it) then two can play that game. :3 But if he's ignoring me than I just don't care. -_- I'm done having my heart broken. I'm not gonna chase anymore. Anyways, I'm watching the Olymics right now, which seems to be the only show not filled with love quotes and relationship statuses. It's at Women gymnastics. I wish I had kept up with gymnastics...but I quit two years ago. oh well, we live we learn. Haha I have no idea what the Olympics had to do with this. . .

Safe and Sound

Kay, I don't believe that the people who I was worried about found the blog. but you may have noticed that I deleted the post about the events of the party, that's because it was the post I was worried that would give away who I was to him (yes, that's what I will be calling him from now on. he is also known as (male name #1). . . I'll figure out (Male name #2) later, maybe I'll just make up code names for them or something. we'll see.

 But anyway, according to my previous post, something happened to me on Tuesday night. Well, his best friend, was texting me about his ex, which I happened to be hanging out with at the time. And all the sudden out of the blue he tells me that he told him to tell me that he thought I was beautiful. . . word for word, I swear. i didn't know what to think. But yea, I was kind of concerned that they had found my blog and that's where that had come from. Pity. Ugh. And for those of you that read that post that I deleted know that it was pretty pitiful. . . But I asked his best friend if they found it (They had been hanging out that night, I assume.) and he got all confused, so I'm still having trouble believing that, but I don't think that he would lie. . . and if he did than this post should make him very sad, because I will quite litterally punch him in the throat. . . .

Haha ANYWAYS. We just got to start trotting Baron on a lunge line. . . then we get to ride him at the trot for increasing increments for six weeks. . . yay. . . it's going to be FOREVER until I actually get to do Barrels and/or poles. :'( *sadness*

But I hung out with him and his best friend yesturday with his best friends ex and another girl that I don't know too well. . . ya, the tension was pretty intense between those too. You could almost feel it in the air if you stepped between them. . . lol jk, but close enough. And When it was time for me to leave they didn't want to be left there, so they asked if they could go with me to wherever I was going next which happened to be the barn. So they got play the part of dog sitter. . . but I think they kind of enjoyed it. xD They took care of my dog and my trainers dog for an hour or so.

I really hope I didn't get too annoying, I would like to hang out with them again. :/ hm. . . anyway. G'Night.

Lost and Found

So. . . it's been awhile. . . and right now I am kind of concerned that someone that I REALLY didn't want to find my blog. . . found it. . . . . So. You know who you are if you're reading this. If you see this post I need you to text me. Right now. Because I do need to explain myself and I don't really want you're pity at this time. . . . . . like seriously, it's not even worth it. But then again, if they haven't found it, then I'm good. My heart is litterally beating out of my chest and my hands are like shaking. I REALLY REALLY hope what I think just happened didn't. But don't lie to me. Something Insane happened to me on Tuesday night that made me happy but I was kind of wondering where the hell it came from. . . and I was looking at my stats and i had many more veiws on my blog than what is normal just on Tuesday night. Aaaaand now I think that this may or may not be the answer. ugh. I am almost on the verge of deleting my blog.... damnit. or just changing the URL.

Maia's Shower Thoughts. . .

So you know how when you're taking a shower or standing in the rain and something about it gives you time to think about some of the stupiest things? Well, I'm starting a series, that I will just post these 'Shower Thoughts' here we go: 1) Why do clouds float? I mean, its not like they are less dense than air, thus they cannot FLOAT. There must be some kind of boyancy thing. But isnt it weird? Its kinda mind boggling. 2) these last few days I've been having these almost epiphanies where I suddenly realise how a movie director or author thought of something. Its great! Like when you're wondering how someone could come up with something like that. For example: in Avatar: The Last Airbender the cartoon(not the movie, the movie sucked.) but in the last episode in the third season the third or so part, there is a giant lion turtle thing that transportes Aang to the Fire Nation. And it has an island on it's back! I always wondered how the director thought of that, and well, we were driving past a lake and there was this island thing in it, and at first glance it looked like a turtle!!!! Bam! Amazing! 3) I really wish I could fly. 4) What would I do with my life if I was a superhero? Would I be good? Or bad? Knowing me, probably that chic that knows what is right, but has a bad tendancy to make the wrong decision and then beat my head against the wall later. But also be stubborn, and independant. And a little Sassy. Wait. . . I just described me. Which can only mean one thing. I'm a superhero. Hah. Good luck world. 5) I dont really like rain, but I love showers. I wonder why? Maybe its cuz a shower is constant? Not random? I dont really mind either but whatever. And when I'm with someone else, I like completely foret about the rain. Hm. 6) I suddenly understand why kissing in the pouring rain is such a good symbol of love and hope. Kissing is a symbol of love right? And Love is supposed to be a sign of hope almost right? And thats maybe because to unite two fighting kingdoms, a prince from one had to marry the princess of the other, to create hope for a no-fighting future. Then pouring rain in a symbol of sadness. Because tears reaemble a rain storm. And if its POURING then its like EXTREME sadness. So KISSING(hope) in the POURING RAIN(Sadness) is hope in sadness, and BAM! LOVE! HOPE! Im out. Peace. ;P

Love. . .

Have you ever been trurly in Love? Most people i know haven't, and I'm not really sure if I have yet either, but I think i know how it feels. Every little move they make is just kinda. . . eye catching. . . I guess that's the best way to put it. . . And I know that this sounds REALLY cheesy but it's like, everytime you see them its like something's in your stomach, and nooo not butterflies. . . it's something a lot more HEAVY. . . . like some kind on thick oil or something is just stitting in the bottom of your stomach. . . it feels similar to guilt, I guess but it feels happier. But you can't help but smile like an idiot when your with them no matter how hard you try and "play it cool." Blushing is from hormones. . . let's face it. It's hard to come up with complete sentances when you're with them, which just makes you feel even more like an idiot. But no matter how much you make yourself look like a fool, you still want to be with them, be near them, hear them talk to you. I don't know about you, but I am a total sucker for blue eyes. And I know that that's what most girls say about guys but yuh know what? They have no frikin idea. nearly every guy I have actually liked has had blue eyes, light blue eyes to be exact. It's rediculous. I'm also a sucker for black hair. . . if they don't have blue eyes, it's black hair. urgh! Anyway, moooooving on. i can get lost in a guys eyes, I can't look him in the eyes anymore because I know I won't be able to look away. Something about hearing his voice and seeing him makes my knees go weak. Aaaand I know he'll never be there to catch me if I fall sooo What's the point. :( Kay, I'm gonna go now before I get into some stupid romance self-pity thing . . .Which I kinda already have. . .

Baron Update

I may or may not have told you that Baron tore a ligament in his ankle? Well, if not, I just did! But he's been on stall rest since the end of Spring break :( (Stall rest is where you can't ride your horse or make him/her go faster than a walk) but good news! We're gonna be able to get on him this Sunday!! I'm so so so so so so so happy!!!! But I'm kind of scared too. He's a little bit on the wild side even when we ride him so with all his energy built up from the past two plus months he could be mentaly INSANE!!!! And we can't push him past a awlk yet, we have to make sure he's used to the saddle and everything before we can take it up to a trot. :/ But still! I'm getting back on my horse!!!! YES! haha. :P Oh and another horse note. For all you horse lovers, horse owners, and vet dreamers, I have just created a NEW website called  All About Horses. :) I will be talking about things like Riding Tips, Ground Training Exercises, to nutrition, to horse-happy things like horse treats. Click Here to go to it!!Anyway, that is all for today. C'ya!!

What do you do?

What do you do when you've fallen in love with someone?
What do you do when someone else likes you?
What do you do after someone tells you they like you but then never actually talks to you?
What do you do when you realize that you may never see someone you love ever again?
What do you do when nothing in your life ever goes the way you wnt it to?
What do you do when your best friend turns on you?
What do you do when someone you've grown close to vanishes out of your life?
What do you do when people tell you to just give up?
What do you do when people tell you it's not worth it?
What do you do when you've been left to 'fend for yourself?
What can you do, what can you say?
I want to tell someone that I like(may even love) that I like him, but the words just don't come, and I would break someone else's heart. I just want him to know, I don't wanna hurt anyone! I have one day left in school, I guess I want to tell him face to face. But I don't have the guts. I have one day! One day, is not enough for this kind of thing!!! I need more time. What could I do in one day? Com'on, I need some help here! only one day is NOT enough

8 things . . .

Number 1:I have veiwers in Germany and Italy now. Hi people in Italy!! Hi people in Germany!!
Number 2: Self pity is NOT attractive
Number 3: Just freaking live life and hope for the best.
Number 4:Karma is a . . . .(you know what I was about to say, com'on)
Number 5:Stop dwelling on the bad parts of life and focus on the good.
Number 6: Smile. It looks good on you(Well, technechly I don't know what you look like . . but I'm assuming here)
Number 7:The outside of a horse is the best thing for the inside of a human.
Number 8:People say that hate is a strong word, so they try not to say it when they don't mean it, but love is too, and people through that around like it's nothing.

Why?

Some people ask me why I LOVE preforming. It's simple. If they ask it, they just don't get preforming something you're good at. I hate the nerves before it but something about showing off what you've worked so hard on to people you've never met before is like the greatest feeling in the world. I am in love with that feeling while you're on stage or in the arena or whatever. So my first example is music. This is my biggest one. I get soooo nervous before a concert or recital or whatever but when I'm actually doing it, I loose myself. I almost forget that the audience is there, It's just me, the piano or microphone, and that spotlight. Just recently I preformed a specialty number for my choir. When I auditioned for that I was INSANELY nervous, my hands were shaking on the piano keys but my voice wasn't affected for some odd reason. But when I preformed it, I was fine. The spotlight didn't even seem hot until after I stood up and cutesey'd. I was just really comfortable on stage. The spotlight was kinda comforting and my voice went through the song without a single crack or flaw(although i did acidentally skipped half a verse bacause I got so caught up in the music) And then I had a solo. For the piano one I didn't have to face the audience but for this one I did have to. I thought this would make me more nervous but I looked straight at them and sang. Now for 2) Horseback riding. That's just . . . different. I'm nervous before I enter the arena, my hands shaking . . .That part I hate, but I got to get used to it. Then I go in preform (barrels, poles, flags, pleasure, or whatever) and I don't feel a thing, I just know I gotta keep the pattern straight, listen to commands and get the fastest time. It's just me, the horse, the ground we have yet to cover, and the finish line. I don't realize I'm still nervous until after I exit the arena . . .that's when I get shaky and crap. But that's more just the adrenaline, and excitment. ;) 3) Musical Theater: This one is easy . . . you know the lines and everyone else's lines by heart, you've practiced it a MILLION times and you can't even SEE the audience because the spotlights are so bright, and it's not like you're even facing them full on the whole time . . . But ANYWAY! Those people who hate preforming don't know how to loose themselves in what they're doing. You just got to stop thinking about the consequences and the people in the crowd and focus on what you're doing and why. Y.O.L.O. ;) might as well live it to it's fullest while you can.

I totally understand.

"I totally understand, it's okay." <---- Okay, that phrase . . . I have something to say about it. 1) Can that get anymore cliche? Just curious . . . 2) We never hear that enough. . . however cliche it is, no one REALLY says that, thay give hugs, tell us we'll make it through this blah blah blah blah. total BS. I want to hear that phrase and it to really be MENT. 3) When people do say it . . . most the time they don't really get it . . .Sorry, but it's true. Uhm yea, say I'm having problems at home and feeling suicidal or whatever(I'm not really suicidal, I'm just using it as an example) and I break down in front of you, and you tell me that . . . yea right, you're a spoiled kid whose parents are married happily ever after . . . you do NOT understand, so shut up! I can tell when people are BSing me, and that quote is one that when I do hear it, most the time it's nowhere close to true . . . grrrrr

Lies, love, friendship, and explosions

I'm going to rant now . . . 'cuz I'm so bored . . . not cuz I love blogging or anything . . .xD Why can't people just understand? Why can't they just not question? Why are some people so self concious? What ever happened to self confidence? Why can't people keep secrets? Why don't we just . . . be better people? What is stopping us? I honestly don't freaking get it. Like I'm religious and all, and I totally understand sin and adam and  eve and all, I get it but why don't we even try? We think it's cool to be all "badass" by smoking pot, cheating on our bfs and gfs, knowing the lastest gossip and spread it like a freaking wildfire when we promised the person it's about not to tell. -_- seriously people? Do you not have any guilt or is anything inside you telling you that what you're doing is wrong? Anything at all?? Why can't we just speak our minds and not hide things. It would honestly make this world so much better if we just said things intead of lying and hiding stuff. I'm so sick of the human race . . . UGHHHHH!!! And on top of all these LIES all anyone seems to focus on anymore is LOVE. Love this, love that. Do we even have lives anymore? I mean I do like people and want the same back from (male name #1), but seriously, whatever happened to FRIENDSHIP? kay, I'm done, before I freaking EXPLODE!!!! growl   >:(

Since The First Moment I Met You (So Far)

When I saw you for the first time I was just captivated

It was love at first sight for me,

but you glanced away.

I couldn't fall asleep that night,

thinkin' 'bout what if's and maybe's.

You were always on my mind,

runnin' in circles and circles.

And Baby please don't stop

'Cuz I'm falling in Love

You had me caught in those blue eyes and brown hair

since the first moment I met you.

I always wish'd that you'd be there,

but I know that that dream won't ever come true,

since the first moment I met you.

Dreams are just little thoughts just waiting to come true.

Dreams are just my heart speakin' it's mind.

Since the First moment I met you.

Song . . . and other stuff

Kay, so, I am making it a goal to post on here everyday . . you're gonna have to deal with me for awhile . . . teehee, so rants here we come. So I started working on a song today . . well . . no . . yesturday, and I'm going to post the lyrics. Okay? . . okay! (yea, you really have no say in this. I'll post then right after this post. IDK what it's called yet but it might be called . . . something . . we'll see, I had a name in my head but I lost it right as I was about to type it. . .Oh boy . . thank you ADD. -_-. Oh, OH!! name options: Dreams, or The First Moment I Met You. You'll see what I mean in a sec. But anywho. My friend . . . AKA, the hostess of the party . . . I think I can say her name, it's Caitlin. But she likes (male name #1)'s best friend, weird right? Wait . . .I don't see how that's weird . . *sighhhh* IDK anymore. Well, that was my rant, lyrics are next. :)
Oh and P.S. They lyrics don't ryhme . . . I'm too lazy to rhyme. . .

*Insanely Talented*

Hey! So you know how I was going to make a blog just about my friends talents? I told you a little while ago? Ya, well I made it, just got it started but still, I think the idea is pretty cool! :) the URL is http://www.insanelytalented.blogspot.com/ <----Click on it! It will magically take you there :P haha. xD So last week was Kate, and this week is going to be Bethany Cooke, one of my BFFs I might add. haha. Go there on Monday or Tuesday and you'll see. It's going to be GREAT!!

Tired weather

Today was just one of those days that the weather is all rainy and cloudy and you just wanna go to bed, you know? And it really sucked becase to day was day 1 of finals! D: I just want it to be Summer!! Summer! Summer! Summer! Urgh!!! So, let's talk, why do all the hot guys have to be so hot? WHYYY??? haha, I probably shouldn't be talking about this, because I think the guy I'm talking about might read my blog, if so, Hiiiiii Ben! haha but he's told me why he's gay and I get it but still. He's like my best friend. All girls need a gay best friend. He's awsome. :) If there is one person I can trust, it would be either, him, Sarah, Caitlin, Bethany, Penelope, or Arielle. (If you haven't noticed, I do have ADD, like I'm not just saying this, I really do, like I should be taking medication but it's not like I can only focus for like 5 seconds, it's more like I can only focus for a max of maybeeee 3 minutes, if I try to. I'm looking at my clock and I've noticed that all the hands are black, except the second hand, which is gold. Black and gold, hm, bees are black and gold, sort of, nahh they're black and yellow. and they collect honey, which is gold(ish). So, hey! it works out! How did I get from weather to gay guys to trust, to ADD, to clocks, to bees, to honey in like 2 minuetes? I should be doing my American History Project . . .

I have a predicament . . . imagine a party . . . with both (male name #1) and (male name #2). Got it? kay, now my friend, who is the hostess, wants to play spin the bottle there. . . see my problem . . . I think she's got it in her head that something is gonna happen that night between me and . . one of them. TALK ABOUT AWKWARD!!!! bleepety bleep bleep. . . I'm kinda worried now, but that's okay, I have to get through Finals and interclub(A riding competition at the place I ride) before this party goes down. boy, oh boy oh boy! This should be awsome. I'll, of course let you know how this goes. :D

Wish

So one of the things that I believe in the most is wishes. I know people always say that wishing gets you nowhere, and i know that, and you're probably asking why I believe in it. I believe in it because everything starts with a wish, an idea that we want to come true. That wish can start so many things that can lead to your wish becoming true. I mean I get it that there are no 'magical faries' or whatever that make your wish come true. We all know that we have things we want to happen or do, but sometimes we don't really think about it, and they stay in the back of our minds until we do something like close our eyes as we blow out our birthday candles or blow the seeds off of a dandelion head. Then we realize that we really want this to happen and we go out and make it that wish come true, we do something to help that wish, that thought. Sometimes, we decide to do nothing about it, and blame it on the wish, vowing never to wish on a dandelion again. But in reality, the dandelion was never gonna do anything about it, it was all you, it was your choice. So i believe in wishes, that's how all things start. (That's me ranting for you, expect more of these in the future)

Boy Problems, Venting

So I really hope none of my really close friends or that these guys don't look at my blog . . . or I'm kinda sqrewed . . .Oh well, I won't say their name. So I have like this guy, (male name #1), for like two years . . . and some people think he likes me too, but you know how that goes. He likes another girl (girl name). He's even told her. But I also like another guy (male name #2), but not nearly as much . . and I told him that I wasn't quite sure if I liked him or not... He then told me that he likes me . . . a lot . . .and then told me that since it's a week and a half left of school, he doesn't want to deal with a summer relationship, which I totally understand . . buuuuuut then he said somthing like, "How about friends with benefits until highschool starts?" So I said okay . . and I think that that means no strings attached, so I can date someone over the summer if I want to right? I don't wanna hurt him, after all I am going to highschool with him but I still really really like (possibly love) (male name #1), and he's going to a different highschool next year . . . I don't know what to do!!!!!! I'm just venting. Helpppppppp!!!! *sighhhhh* what should I do?

okay, so I've been thinking. Maybe this friend thing that I mention in my last post, I won't do on this blog, I'll make a new one for it. So that this blog stays **Random** and my new one would be fully dedicated to the friend with talents thing. what do you think?

So Kate wanted me to post this:

 












Needless to say(I think) this is Kate! Soon to be famous fashion designer :D This are some designs that she's drawn for me in my notebook and such. :)

I can show you some more once she sends me them :) So i'm going to start a series. So once every week or so, I'm going to dedicate a day to one of my insanly talented friends :) I'll share pictures and maybe some videos but if I can't get any pic or vids, I'll just write about their talent. :) So today and maybe tomorrow is KATE GIBSON (she also goes by ZINNIA GIBSON) and her talent is designing and fashion in general.

End of the year checklist:
[x] Dress Rehersals
[x]Alice in Wonderland Musical
[x]Images(rediculously good choir that I'm in) Final Concert
[ ]Elitches on Friday
[ ]Finals
[ ]cleaning
[ ]other crap
[ ]SUMMER!
Almost there folks! We're getting there! :D My life is slowly coming together and I'm loving it! I'm heading to highschool next year, and it's going to go well (don't say anything, I'm being optimistic)
I have noticed over the past few days that I love looking into people's eyes . . it's just awsome. IDK. I'm gonna post a video of me singing, and a picture of my eye. It's just so facinating! When I post the pic of my eye I'll show you what I'm talking about. xD Over the summer expect to see a lot of me posting randomly, I'm gonna be super bored. haha well, I'm in American History, and should be helping Kate and Mady on our project . . not like they are working either . . . :P

Hey ya'll! So I was gonna post somthing when i was sitting next to Kate today in American History, but the bell rang right before i was gonna hit post . .. grrrr, but anyway, you should check out Kate's blog, it's pretty boss if you ask me ;) (haha love you Kate!) But the URL is www.bright-lightsinthesky.blogspot.com just warning you, her code name is Zinnia! :D I am superrrr bored. Lookin out the window hoping that summer will come soon! I don't think I ever told you think but I got a horse in October, so I've been somwhat busy . . .for awhile. but this is a pic of me riding him! :D

His name is Baron, I also lease another horse named Scout, but i don't have many good pics of him yet, so that's that.

Here Again!

I haven't been on my blog in awhile . . .I'm Sorry, Okay? sheesh! no need to get worked up about it!! haha, but to be honest, I kinda forgot . . .sorry! I will post more starting TODAY!!!