That Stupid Little Pendant

Everyone at one point in their lives has had a lucky charm, or something like that, right? A Lucky shirt, a lucky bracelet; something that supposedly gives the owner good luck. I have a lucky charm that I made out of clay and wire that isn't particularly lucky or special at all. I would post a picture, but it's currently upstairs and I'm currently downstairs. Getting would involve walking up at least 20 steps which is too many right now. (It's been quite a long, tiring day that involved lots of barrel practice, a hair cut, a movie, and grocery shopping). But anyway, back to how it looks. It's about half a centimeter thick, square inch of pale blue clay with a dark blue clay stripe running along the out length. The colors on the front kind of swirl with a really pale blue and only a somewhat pale blue. But that's not the important part. The important part (AKA Why I find it so lucky) is that it's wrapped in wire. This might not seem significant, but let me explain. On one side the wire is extremely tangled, messed up and bulky. But on the other side the wires are completely straightened out and they form a really pretty line pattern all going in the same general direction. I know it might seem stupid that I have one of my shower thoughts while looking at this stupid little pendant, but it was just one of those moments, you know? But anywho, I think that this is a good thing for me to see because I always tend to look at the bad part of life. The part that makes me depressed and want to cut, and wish I never existed. But if I turn over the situation I can see something beautiful and amazing that reminds me that I am amazing just the way I am, that I want to be me, and that I never want to be someone else, regardless of all those nights I have looked at myself in the mirror not even recognizing who I am, not wanting to be me, feeling like I am outside my body. My point is that this is for all you people out there who (probably don't read my blog) feel the same way. Life gets better. Just last night I was so overrun by anxiety, worry, depression, but now, less than twenty-four hours later I feel like I'm at the top of the world. It's amazing. So trust me, all you invisible people, it's better when you look up, everything gets better.
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